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Tears rolled down my cheeks many times this week as i anticipated Saturday. 

The beginning of a last.

"For behold, this is the last time that I shall nourish my vineyard" he says. 

Where would He have me nourish one last time?

Liverpool.

This place has and will continue to become a sacred place for me. 

The experinces that have been found in the last 6 weeks have changed me. 

We have found the Saviour working consistently in His vineyard. 

He never missed a day. 

This week was difficult. 

There was a day where i felt like everything came crashing down all at once. 

The thought of having to stay in for another 2 days just did not seem possible. 

I realised that there was more i needed to learn. 

The spirit confirmed to my mind that the comfort would come in learning more about His sacrifice. 

It always does.

As i sat staring at my wall after that long prayer of forgiveness. 

My favourite hymn began to play. 

"This is the Christ, 

the holy Son of God—  

Our Savior, 

Lord, 

Redeemer of mankind.  

This is the Christ, 

the Healer of our souls,  

Who ransomed us with love divine."

Ransomed us. 

Ransomed me. 

What does that mean? 

That is what began my journey of finding him in that lonely and hopeless night. 

I started reading every scripture that mentioned ransom. 

Through that simple, yet powerful, word. 

Heaven stepped in. 

And I began to see what He wanted me to see. 

"Fear not: 

for I have redeemed thee, 

I have called thee by thy name; 

thou art mine. 

When thou passest through the waters, 

I will be with thee; 

and through the rivers, 

they shall not overflow thee: 

when thou walkest through the fire, 

thou shalt not be burned; 

neither shall the flame kindle upon thee. 

For I am the Lord thy God, the Holy One of Israel, 

thy Saviour.

Since thou wast precious in my sight, 

thou hast been honourable, 

and I have loved thee

Fear not: 

for I am with thee

Thus saith the Lord, 

The people which were left of the sword found grace in the wilderness; 

even (you), when I went to cause him to rest.

Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love: 

therefore with lovingkindness 

have I drawn thee.

For the Lord hath redeemed (you), 

and ransomed (you) from the hand of him that was stronger than (you).

And it shall come to pass, that like as I have watched over (you), 

to pluck up, 

and to break down, 

and to throw down, 

and to destroy, 

and to afflict; 

so will I watch over (you), 

to build, 

and to plant, 

saith the Lord."

I realised it wasnt the staying in that hurt my heart. 

It was that my heart began to realise, 

"this is the last time that I shall nourish my vineyard." He said.

Im scared. 

The anticipation of what is to come is scary. 

Everything has changed for me. 

I fear the unknown. 

But, 

Through his words he taught me. 

He comforted my hurting heart. 

I know the journey has just begun. 

A journey that will consist of deep waters and burning fire. 

A journey of being broken down, thrown down, destroyed, and afflicted. 

A journey where a times the enemy seems to be stronger than me. 

But, 

"Fear not" he says. 

"thou art mine"

"I will be with thee"

"I watch over (you), 

to build, 

and to plant,"

"For the Lord hath redeemed (you), 

and ransomed (you)"

He has already saved me. 

And I am free. 

I cherish these moments. 

Sitting beside him. 

Learning of him. 

I know he knows me without a doubt. 

I know that the story he has begun writing on my heart is beautiful. 

It is a story of healing and saving. 

I look forward with great joy. 

Im so ready to serve the Lord one last time with all my heart, might, mind, and strength. 

He will continue to change me.

And i cant wait to see what i become. 

"And the Lord of the vineyard said unto them: Go to, and labor in the vineyard, with your might. For behold, this is the last time that I shall nourish my vineyard; for the end is nigh at hand, and the season speedily cometh; and if ye labor with your might with me ye shall have joy in the fruit which I shall lay up unto myself against the time which will soon come. 

And it came to pass that the servants did go and labor with their mights; and the Lord of the vineyard labored also with them."

This is my great joy. 

He is who I labor for. 

I love Him. 

He means everything to me. 

I love you! 

I pray for you always! 

With love,

Sister B.