Breinholt, Bella P

This week i turned 20! I cant even believe it!  On my birthday i had a moment where i was just laying on the floor thinking. I started thinking about what i have learned over the course of my life. I started playing back a lot of moment in my head of where i learned these lessons.  There was two thing that all of these moments had in common. And that is they are made up of choices and change.  The importance of choices has been something that quite fruquently crosses my mind. I think its because each day my schedule is based on the choices of others.  But, that day on the floor i began thinking about my choices.  More so my choice to change.  There were many choices before my mission that initiated change. Whether it was because i chose to or not, the change still came. And it led me to this place.  I'm 20. In a foreign country. Surround by strangers. Inviting people to choose Jesus Christ.  Its the greatest choice i have made. And it has changed ...

As we arrived at this sisters friends house for a lesson we knocked on the door and there was no response. We decided that instead of standing around waiting for them to answer it would be more beneficial to walk around the area and do some street contacting. We prayed and began walking down this road. As we got down to the end i looked over at this door to this house that was open. Sitting inside the door was a lady sitting on the couch. We made eye contact and we walked away.  I remembered the conversation i had just had with this sweet sister about the importance of listening and acting on every spiritual prompting. We talked about how there are moments where we will be scared or wont want to do certain things, but it doesnt matter because it is what the Saviour would do.  I stopped in the middle of the road and looked over to this sister and told her that we needed to go back. She then said she felt the same way.  We headed back to this open door and began talking to ...

A road walked before me.  A life lived before mine.  The same pain felt.  Because of the love he has for me.  It hit me this week.  The magnitude of the sacrifice.  I love teaching the atonement.  The longer i am out the more i realise how much it means to me.  What means the most to me about it all is how personal it is to each individual.  Everything about it is perfect.  Thinking about jesus christ on his knees thinking of me and seeing and feeling everything i would go through brings me so much comfort.  And now i walk in his footsteps.  Getting to stand in the place of Jesus Christ is so special. I continue to become so humbled at the fact that he trusts such imperfect people to accomplish this work.  It was a week of major stretching a relying. It seemed to be that i was saying a repentance prayer every 20 minutes. There were days that the natural man was stronger than others. But, he still made the most of what i wa...

I stood in the place where many years ago many saints had been baptised by the first missionaries in england.  As i listened to the water rush down this stream and listened to the birds sings i couldnt help but find tears streaming down my face.  The Spirit of love filled me in this moment as i remembered one of my favorite scriptures in the book of mormon.  "And now it came to pass that all this was done in Mormon, yea, by the waters of Mormon, in the forest that was near the waters of Mormon; yea, the place of Mormon, the waters of Mormon, the forest of Mormon, how beautiful are they to the eyes of them who there came to the knowledge of their Redeemer; yea, and how blessed are they, for they shall sing to his praise forever." For me, the same place that so many have come to know their saviour has become my sacred place.  Humility has filled me this week.  As i sat gathered together with the missionaries that have influenced me the most, i couldnt help but fee...

I prayed so earnestly this last week that i would be able to have a sure witness that Joseph Smith is the prophet of this last dispensation.  I have always believed. But, i wanted to know for sure.  For Zone Conference we were asked to study joseph smith history. And i was so amazed at the faith this young boy had. I love his diligence and drive to know truth.  I found my self in his same spot. Just wanting to know the truth!  My prayers we answered! As i finished my prayer this voice came my mind saying,  "Think about all the places and things that have brought you the most love and joy? Its because of Joseph Smith."  My heart was filled. It all made sense.  The gospel is truly what has brought me the greatest love and joy in my life.  As i sat singing and listening to the songs of the restoration at zone conference i couldn't help but cry. I can't deny that feeling i felt in my heart. I know he is the prophet of this final dispensation. I know f...